I Am Beautiful

I’ve decided to give myself a gift. That gift is to see the beautiful woman that I am. Finally.

It’s Pinktober. This time of year, I usually write a blog post about experiencing breast cancer. This year, I feel different. I feel like reflecting on things–three things–that make me… beautiful. Yes, that’s right—BEAU-TI-FUL.

My “secret”

I have a “secret”. It’s a deep knowledge of feelings and emotions, a deep knowledge of human-ness and humanity. That knowledge is part of my fabric. It’s an insatiable desire to discover new worlds—whatever they are—, to reach out to the soul of others and get to understand them. Whether I walk through a Malcom X Festival, groove in a community of hippies or attend an Alcoholic Anonymous speakers meeting, I connect with others. Each time I connect with them as if I could become their best friend, if only we’d have a little more time together.

Rise above

Cross two cancers, move across the ocean, experience living together, live through a divorce and losses of all kinds, cope with a complete change of career… All this while still believing in love, wanting to build a life together, and… dancing. I go through my ordeals with the willingness to rise above, to keep believing that everything is possible again and again. Hey, you, all the angels that look after me, please help me keep my willingness that way!

Authenticity

“Stay who you are”. Leif Roland, my therapist and gestalt trainer at the time, made that demand to me shortly after I landed in the States, thirteen years ago. Immersed in a new culture, I was paralyzed by what I felt was expected of me—to be polite, smiling and happy, no matter what. His words gave me the permission to be myself. And I have. No matter what.

How about you? What makes YOU beautiful?


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Pinktober–Intuition Saved My Breast
Pinktober aka The Month Of OVER Giving

6 Replies to “I Am Beautiful”

  1. Yes, Elizabeth!! This is beautiful and deeply honest blog. Because of your authenticity, you speak to all of us who struggle, not only to keep giving birth to our true nature, but who want to live by streaming forth the qualities and life flow of our beings. Thank you so much for this new blog. Your NVC friend, Roy

    1. Thanks, Roy! Interestingly, I hesitated to post the blog with its title. I thought, “it’s too much. Readers are going to think I’m a pretentious jerk”. I was going to write, “Pinktober–I Am Beautiful”. And then I decided to own how I feel, to own the fact that I am (finally) seeing the beautiful person that I am and keep the original title. What a journey.

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